I guess it’s time to let this all out.

It’s the start of a new year and with that I think it’s time I let out all that has been eating up a lot of my strength over the past 10 years. For a long time I have been hiding large sections of my past to people, except for those who I deemed trustworthy enough to know. I’ve had my trust broken many times but it’s time to make an appeal to everyone. I’m a little scared about how people will react when reading this, if you have nothing nice to say please don’t say anything at all.

When I was around 8 years old, I was abused. Not just any sort of abuse either, sexual abuse and it wasn’t by any other person, it was by someone I knew and someone I thought loved me. My step father, whose name I shall not reveal for confidential purposes, only those who know me personally will know of him.
This abuse wasn’t a one-time deal, it was on going, almost every night whilst I was “asleep” laying in bed with my eyes closed, scared of him, he treated my body very roughly and I can still remember every touch of his hands, his fingers and his tongue. I won’t go into the disgusting details, but the only aspect that the abuse I received fell short of was rape. I became too scared to go to sleep and wanted to refuse sleep as long as I could. I felt scared, alone and I couldn’t trust the world. Everything had a much darker light shone over it and it was at that moment that I realized what the world was really like.

The abuse continued for around 4 years or so, and finally ended around when I started high school, I have been emotionally scarred since that experience and have developed a lot of severe issues linked to trust and I can become socially awkward very easily. I can’t blame all my tendencies on what happened to me in the past , but a lot of them can be psycho-analytically linked together.

I am telling my story in hope that others who have suffered or are suffering will find the strength in their hearts to report it to the proper authorities. I felt alone, and it’s only been recently that I have realized that I am not alone. There are children in the world getting sexually abused by even their parents right now, and they need protection 1/4 of the population in female children and 1/6 of the population in male children receive this sort of abuse, together that’s around 1/3 of the population in children getting sexually abused and this abuse needs to stop. I didn’t have the courage to stand up for my rights, but that in no means that any other child should have to suffer for as long as I did.

To all those that are getting or have been abused, report it. It’s not a waste of time and there are people out there that can help, that can advise and will make sure the situation is dealt with in the correct manner. To all those who suspect abuse, don’t hesitate to report it. If you are wrong, nobody will get angry, but if you are right and do nothing, a child will endure an even longer suffering. All I’m asking is for people to keep their eyes opened, don’t become blind to the suffering for a child, don’t let it continue, don’t allow another child to lead a life like mine. I’m not here as a guru, I’m not here as a psychiatrist, I can’t give everyone the help they need, but I am here as an experience. I’ve been there and if you have too then please, feel free to contact me if you need someone like me to talk to.

Thankyou for your time and let’s stop this together.

We need all the help we can get..

After a conversation with me, Adam and LA about how it was a shame about Trocadero going down in the last year, we looked into why it went down and what is gonna happen now.

Everyone who is reasonably interested in the UK anime scene will know about Trocadero and it’s roots. Probably one of the biggest holders of entertainment in London until recently.

Lots of people know that the famous Funland Arcade (formerly known as Segaworld) was closed and boarded off in the middle of last year, and it was never formally announced to regulars of why, and what will happen, popular speculation was that the electrical outlay for the building had gone haywire and fell apart.

Well after doing a few quick pokes into the Trocadero’s current founders we found out some rather shocking results:

• Trocadero was taken over by company Criterion Capital in 2005 whose main focus is to raise capital on property, not on keeping the buildings main goals in place.
• In 2008, the company was given the green light by the government to put together a £100m renovation, with the actual plans hidden from public view till a year later.
• In 2009, the announcement was made of the plans, turning parts of the Trocadero into a pod hotel, but the plans were not well heard of in the cosplay community.
  
  For those who don’t know what a pod hotel is, this is a capsule hotel in Tokyo:
  
  
  And here is a link to what we could be seeing in our beloved Trocadero soon:
  http://www.easyhotels.com/  
  
  
• In 2010, the Funland floors were closed abruptly overnight and the areas were boarded up soon after.

 So basically, under the nose of the cosplay community, one of the largest inputters of money into the centre via the arcade, have been practically betrayed by the company, who closed the arcade and even vendors of the place have been keeping quiet about the hotel plans. 

Just so you all know, this is the guy in charge of Criterion Capital, Asif Aziz,

Him and his company have robbed the cosplay community of their home, cause that was what Trocadero was, the people there were like family, and we were loving to each other, no matter what sex, age, race or even upbringing we had. It was a place we all could be one group. And we supported each other, but now that group has died.

If anyone has some free time, feel free to send an email to the company and tell them what you thought about this use of the Trocadero, the email follows: info@criterioncapital.co.uk

We are thinking about a petition to bring back the old Trocadero we all know and love but only if I get enough people replying to this on Tumblr or FB, tell me what you all think and pass it on, let’s see if we can bring some attention to the company’s errors, and show the world what the Cosplay Community can do.

Share, Comment, Like, Fave, Do whatever you have to get this news out and around. Support Old Trocadero.

… Forget it.

I’m getting really pissed off with the selfish nature of the human race. I was always raised on “treat others how you’d like to be treated yourself” I understand that not everyone was raised on that morale, and that everyone is different and has different opinions. I also understand I sometimes can snap and be a imperfect person, hard to be around and difficult to understand.

But haters will hate. That doesn’t mean they should take out their anger on you, I don’t see why I should let myself get walked over any more. I have opinions too, and we have always been entitled to our own opinion. I think that’s fair, right? Well obviously not, I’m not allowed to have an opinion on anything, but everyone else is.. and they are always right aren’t they? Am I void to this reasoning?

I always lay my body down and give up, there is no way of a compromise. It’s either the stress and hate from other people on my shoulders or just force myself to change my opinion… is that fair? No, I don’t think it is, it’s driving me to the brink of insanity. I don’t think my “friends” should be doing that. I’m fed up of this shit reasoning. I am myself, you don’t like it? That’s your problem, and if you are going to create a problem with me then… Fuck off. I don’t need your shit in my life.

Haters only hate what they can’t have or what they can’t be. End of discussion, do not force your opinions onto someone else and don’t force yours onto them. Equality was created for a reason, the world would be a better place if we stuck and followed the codes we made for a reason. We are all individuals and we all have our own opinions, life choices, likes, dislikes… Doesn’t make us a lesser person, so don’t treat anyone that way. It simply isn’t fair.

Adam ~

きみをえいえんにあいします。

Kimi wo eien ni aishimasu. That is all ~ 

NYHD

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